Survival Instinct

In every one of us we have this instinct of survival that sometimes we didn’t know or care if it’s good for everyone’s concern. This instinct could sometimes cloud someone’s good judgment and unfortunately someone is getting hurt.

And for those merely spectators some could conclude harshly or unjustly. What more for the one in the mid of it, who happens to be in a wrong place and time. This type of situation where we are at present, regarding my eldest son’s activity.

He was not informed that the club where he is with has fewer players on his division this school year. He was asked to sign before end of school year, stating that he will continue playing there this year without informing him, that a lot have moved out or stop doing basket. Then, last summer he was informed by his friend that there will be only 2 players and he’s the second one.

So, he told us that he will be transferring back to Lannion basket ball club. He was thinking that it would be easy like last year. Then, last week D’man called the head of the club in Tregastel to ask for release documents for Julian. He also stated our reason of transferring, which is not enough players on his category and Julian doesn’t want to play with senior group. Though He really like to do it in Tregastel because it‘s nearer to our place, but he preferred to be playing with his age bracket rather than being with senior & being benched always. D’man didn’t further elaborate how unconfy it makes Julian playing with his physic prof & double size of him. (I would if I’m not doing well on his subject, mama thinking here.)As he (D’man), also expressed that we are willing to retransfer him back there, if they will have enough player on Julian’s catregory to make a team for next year.

The director was really nice at that time seeing our reasons. And told the D’man that ask Julian, if he really wants to transfer coz if it’s being in the senior makes him think; that it will make him stop playing it will not be the case, he is good. But if he still want to transfer, he‘ll do the release letter for him. We were so happy hearing it.

Then, last Wednesday D’man called back, but the old nice director had somehow become vicious & insulting. He was talking in different lingo. Saying that he will not do the release coz he will rip-off Julian’s license to play and he will never accept Julian back to his club for now or next year . Hubby was so stunned that he was lost of words, dully repeating word by word what the director told him. I was so sad at the same time mad. Coz I know how much it meant to Julian playing basket. He is almost sleeping with his ball. It is how much he loves it.

And then, it made me thinking back, when I was talking to someone in Basket ball club representative in Lannion, I was asking which paper we should provide to retransfer Julian back to their club. And if, I would get this paper will they accept him. They say yes, but in some little hint they make me think that they have some issue with the other club. Naming the director was a little bit more emphasized than normal. That made me cunningly asked; is there something that I need to be aware of? I just got a crooked smile & a short word. Was that an omen? I wander.

Then, putting words of Julian & the one from Lannion, it made me think that the one in Tregastel is just trying to have more people to sustain the club. I agree that it should not closedown too; coz there are lots of children; who lives nearby would gladly benefit having a closer basketball club to join. But unfortunately, this year & perhaps since last year; the young men preferred playing in Lannion, because it bigger club & near the secondary school where Julian attends, too. It’s easier for them to go for practice, be with friend or something.

With the club trying to survive and my child is on the midst of it. How would I react? I would have tried more to talk to Julian on staying and play with senior but the way he spoke with my husband. It seems that his instinct got better of him. D’man told me he called the other club & told how it difficult to get the necessary letter. They told him that the club in Tregastel could vote veto on Julian’s transferring.

Now, I really feel bad that one of the head of club, who should be more understanding why this people patronizing them ,because they have things in common, love of what they do there and the club represent. I'm wishing, whatever issue these clubs have should be settled soon, I would be sadder to see someone else would be in my son’s shoe.

Stagnated by choice or not?

“Stagnated we are, but why? We always wait for the tide to come and carry us away, when we could have walked away. >>> Because we made our choice, here we stay or times, we disembark and go.”

Today the weather is in normal state, meaning rain, wind & gray= coldness. Perhaps, you find me sounding redundant. But it’s the fact here. As much as, we love our paysages (sceneries) we have to accept the bad side of living near the coast, specially this coastline. Sometimes, we couldn’t help hating the wetness & grayish aura that we often have to accommodate daily in our lives. The climate change really had done us all. The normal suffering has been prolonged. Not cool at all.

Now, it supposed to be Spring, we should have been outside doing our garden & walking around the coast before the tourist comes. Or I should be starting to remodel the rooms before my paint dries. But no, we are locked up inside the house and lost the motivation of revamping the rooms. And more, I’m tied to do some little indoor activities for the kids to avoid getting bored on their spring vacation.

The long weekend plan to go to England seems getting slimmer due to the weather and we’re lacking of time to book our travels. More on, D’man wants to take the road trip going there. So, long weekend won’t be sufficient to have the visiting we planned. So, I decided to stop looking for ferry’s fare. This needs rescheduling.

What left us is to pray to have decent weather to bring the kids to another region here. Discovering with them would surely be the best way to see more of France. So, where to? We have Loads of pending “I owe you a visit” to our friends.

Even last weekend we did start repaying visit. It was really great. We were blessed with good companies and beautiful sunny Sunday-Our medicine, to sustain what we have now.

Tell me!

Tell me, what i'm feeling now?

Friday should never be confusing

Normally, i should be running up & down with rag & broom in hand. After setting on all the mechanical helps ( laundry & dish washer, dyer & etc... ) working for me. Can't help to THANK those INVENTORS making my life easier." Praise you people. "
If some inventors happen to lost their way here, " Can you please invent some MAGIC WAND." Pretty sure, I can handle the pointing thing, that's where I'm good at.

Oh non, need to do the ironing... doing grocery list...and pack for my little boy, while thinking what plate should i put on our table tonight.. Well, should say that i did the switching " ON " and cleaning the salon.

Guys, i'm allowing you to image me with an APRON but omit the lacey thing on my head, please. Stepford Wives persona? Not bad, but to be more realistic, don't envision me the OVER-indulging (wink) wifey and gifted with proud bumpers and humps. Tell you, don't mind having them at all.

Anyway, i should be doing those to prepare my weekend. So that, Monday won't be so miserable first start of the week. Having 3 monsters who are cuties when asleep. Sometimes, these monsters becomes 4 (sorry, lovey).

Instead, Here I am with my Ltop,writing & figuring how to launch my blog into the eworld. Adding those funny gadgets.. Just amazing. When i did things right, but most of the time, spend on grinding my teeth out of frustration. I ended up asking, " Where do i go from here? "

Blog for dummies, should be dummier ...for my sake. Hubby & friends knew, that I'm NO comprendo with computer. Lately, the copy & paste become my fave.

I got to go....SEEing the list? They are adding up.

Fingerpicking, picks my nerves

To those who doesn’t know fingerpicking, it’s a technique for playing some stringed instruments using fingertips or fingernails instead of a pick (plectrum). It creates new sound… highlighting notes & so on. You must be wondering why praise something that picks my nerve. So contradicting!

Tell you what. A bit of hubby’s other love. His guitar. A passion that I should be supportive, but no, I’m not. Though, I’ve given a hand to earn a bit passion like his. Yet, I’m having difficulties hearing it every time his at home. Playing his favorite guitarist so loud just irks me. Restoring on locking myself in my domain which is kitchen. Still, it’s high pitch find its way piercing my eardrums. Even brain humming my mantra doesn’t work. Plus, seating in a hard stool, just crack me more. Self-imposed detention, won’t recommend it. Gotto think fast before this becomes an issue once again.

Putting on my thinking cap.(think...think...) Voila, a headphone! Next level will be how to suggest it without triggering sensitive spot or would it be wise to give it as valentine present? What a romantic gist.( i know, i know... ) Evoking an undesirable howling in Valentine’s Day makes it's bloody red.

Jotting this down… is not meant to paint black on both of us. Merely showing that even we share great love to one another, doesn’t mean that, we favor the same thing. Individual living together have to learn to accept or mend its differences.

Ps: to those who love Fingerpicking check this kid named Sungha Jung from South Korea. He is amazing.( Not in payroll,just stating,k? ) He deserved to be Known in his craft.