The FRUIT of my FIRE TREE.

When I was young, I was crazy enough to let my future be guide by a fire tree. How is that? You may ask. Let me tell you how insane I was before and perhaps I still am inside now.

Let us go 18 years ago. I was in my teen that my surrogate mom con aunt and I, been into this decreeing things- it’s a way to affirm what you want in life by vocalizing it and then we break our wine glass to shield it.

One of our drinking nights, we were having our wine & some crazy thoughts passed. I was facing our new landscaped garden with a fire tree that we had cut from its upper mid-trunk. We were both admiring the garden to how we were able to transform it into a jungle. Then, she was soliciting my opinion about the fire tree because it looks like it's already died at that time. I’ve told her that best to let it like that, it would be great to have erected driftwood looking in our trellis.

Then the decreeing started, I’ve decreed that when that tree will have a twig, to whomever I’m going out with. I’ll take him more seriously than usual. I was a bit playful when I was young. Timid is not what you can be attach to my name. Therefore, by decreeing on that, it has more meaning to her (aunt) and me. We did have more decrees but I don’t need to tell you.

A year have passed, the fire tree gave me that twig as my sign. I was going out with someone at that time; he was the out of norms that I used to go out with, he’s almost like a nomad artist. As I am, I stick to what I declared.

My relationship to that person didn’t really go well, our trekking together have been hard. It was neither all bad nor good. But it did end eventually. Nevertheless, granted to have two beautiful boys as blessing more than enough. They makes me more a person, I am now.

The first fruit of my Fire tree have now turns to its maturing age. He was the really first breathe of my life. How crazy it may sound my ways to others. Or on hearing the circumstances to have my treasures. I have no shame for I have learnt a lot from my experiences. My boys are my life, for they are my cane to reach my path now and they keep me on the track.

I knew I had a choice to break my decreed for it was just a game but I did not. Not saying it was a wise move nor bad one. I’ve made my choice and passed its course. What it gave me is more to be proud of that’s my boys. If I were given a chance to change my course, I would take the same path because I won’t miss having them (my boys) in my life.

Happy Birthday, Julian!!!

"You 're my true guru, my first breathe of birth, my first real best friend and so proud of you how you become now. I love you with all my kabaliwan (craziness) you know that, And for taking care of me.

As i keep on telling you, you 're the one who made me nice person. Thank you so much."